a cat went up to my neighbor’s back door and scratched on it and now he and his wife have a cat and have audible sex more often
there is a tiny replica of the universe in my mind
it is like a parallel universe
because everything is happening in it
just like it is happening in the real universe
and it hurts
when i hold money in my hand i feel significantly more distant from people that i already feel impossibly distanced from
i feel distant from everyone
i feel more satisfaction after blowing a series of good smoke rings
than i do when i win at basketball
or finish a poem
how can things not be what they seem
who said ‘things are not always what they seem’ first
every prediction i have ever made about anything has been wrong
what is a prediction
seems stupid
why does the future seem definite
it is not
i can’t think of any definite things right now
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